3rd decade & counting :)

...well, it's my third decade on earth today... i filed a two-day leave for my birthday... i suppose to attend 615am mass in St Scho, but my laziness kicked in and so i got up from bed at around 8am, since Che woke me up and greeted me with a hug before she left... I checked my phone and have 6 unread messages, the first 6 greeters: tatay, mommee, tita bell, sunny, michiko, and bee; and also kakang mely, if she's still with us, i am pretty sure that she'll be one among the first greeters! ;)

...i ate breakfast, took a bath, then started with my report for tomorrow... i also got touched receiving a birthday text message from our AO, Ms Liza... from that day that i was scheduled for interview in ASPAC until now, she's a big help to me... :) i left past 11am to attend the 12nn mass in Harrisson Plaza chapel... today is a Wednesday, so there's also novena for Mama Mary after the mass...

...we will have pizza and pasta later for dinner! :)))) busog na naman!

...as i celebrate my 30th birthday today, i am so thankful and grateful for everything that has happened to me... i was able to achieve possessing the school ID of the state university in QC, and the government ID of that office along Roxas Blvd near Cuneta Astrodome, i am looking forward to also have the ID issued by the LTO! ;) i am enrolled in a graduate studies (although i am re-assessing myself about it, if i really want to continue) and i am working in that government agency... there are so many things to come and much, much more for me in the future... i am also looking forward if i'll make or break the exam i took last 10 August... that one will also be a big factor for my future plans... of course, i am thinking of a worse scenario but at the same time hoping for the best thing to happen... i am also apprehensive if i will pass it throughout, but i guess i just need to take things one day at a time, one exam at a time... just like what i have read from a blog: don't busy yourself looking ahead at the bumps of the road, not realizing that a big truck is coming your way... things destined to happen will happen no matter what, i am still believing for God's Master Plan for me... and so far, after the all the ups and downs, crying and laughing, smiling and frowning, i have been living a great life, it may not be perfect but it has taught me how live and enjoy, and be grateful... i am so lucky to be surrounded by great people, i have my siblings, i have my parents, relatives, friends, colleagues, and of course, the newest inspiration and source of joy of our family: our little angel, Mely Angelique... i guess, i could not ask for more, but be thankful and grateful for everything... :) :) :)

...as i start my life towards more decades here on earth, i am contended and satisfied on what i have yet also yearning to achieve more goals and plans if God will permits me... it was a great and fulfilling 30 years of my life and i am looking forward for more! :) :) :) :)

although i don't feel like a 30 year old, i am happy to be 30! hahaha!

...escape.

...it's 2:50am, i'm still waiting to be sleepy,,, lately, i went back to my old way of escaping stress - SLEEPING!!! I have not yet finalize my report, but here i am doing nothing about it, then as usual, i will cram on it days before,,, it has been always like that, i haven't changed... :( the pressure is killing me so i am trying to negate my pressure by totally ignoring those things and those associated to it,,, hay!!!

...6th anniversary :) :)

...well, well, well, i didn't realize that today is the 6th anniversary of this blog... 6 years with more than a hundred posts... with my capacity, that number is good enough... :) :) :)

...i guess, writing is my frustration or should i say being a writer is my frustration, because there seems to be a thousand thoughts running on my mind in a minute... and maybe it's good to write them down... i am keeping a journal notebook, and if i am not mistaken, i am on my 8th notebook now... and also, i am a private person (really?!? hahaha!) ...i can be very talkative at times, but still there are things that i rather keep with myself and just keep my mouth shut... :) :) :)

...more years to come, more posts to make, and more memories to keep! cheers to this blog! (i am hoping that my 24 posts in 2009 would be surpassed this year, well, i still have 4 months, so i guess i can make it!) :) :) :)

...sentiments ^^

...today is wednesday, class day again tomorrow... so far, i have been surviving with my class schedule, we just started with our lessons, i still have to go through a lot of challenges... i am grateful that my superiors at work allowed me to leave earlier when i have class and then i will just have longer working hours on other days to offset the hours i won't be in the office... also my professor is kind enough to understand my situation as a student who is working full time...

...i almost had an anxiety attack last week, it's very ME... i always tend to be nervous and worried over things... of course i am afraid to fail or not do things... i know my capacity and i know i am nothing compared with my classmates... i have been struggling, i have worries, and have fears... but to ease those things, i am just taking things one day at a time... i know this too shall pass... this will end in three months time and i hope to earn 6 more units...

******************** it would be my 3rd decade on earth next week :), 3 decades of laughters and tears, joys and pains, jolly times and sad times, smiling and frowning, ups and downs, etc. - in short, 3 decades of contradictions... all kinds of emotional contradictions that have made me who am i, and where am i now... 30 years of being grateful to have a great family, friends, colleagues, acquaintance... my 30th birthday would be special because we have now a very welcome addition to the family, our little angel, Mely Angelique... :) ...i will try to enjoy that day, although i am a bit doubting since i will have a report the next day... but in general, i a really thankful and grateful for everything that have happened to my existence, and looking forward of more challenges and achievement/s... there's more to come, and i will be very happy to go through it all with God's grace and guidance and with all the people around me... :) :) :)