something new :)

i am so glad to meet new "friends"... it was our very first time meeting each other but i somehow felt an instant connection... it was really like a teammate spirit that we did not get on in the elevator since there's no space for the five of us, we ended up using the stairs - 4th going down the ground floor... it was fun meeting 'variety' of individuals... Karl, graduate of Central Colleges of the Philippines and currently working as an Editor; Niccolo, fresh graduate of BS Psychology from Ateneo de Manila University and now wants to pursue Music while working; Chino, graduate of Consular Studies in De La Salle University - College of St. Benilde and worked as Flight Attendant in PAL for few years; and Candice, who is working as a traffic reporter for a radio station... it was my first time to meet different people, with different background in just a single day, and it was really fun... Good luck Batch 6 teammates, it just so sad that i have to quit :( i hope to meet you again in the future... :)

...stepping forward

the first few days was very difficult, there were awkward silence from time to time... it felt like the first few days, when i still need to think what to say and i just can't comment on things, i felt that i need to be careful on what i will say... i thought the remaining days would be like a mirror of the first few days... the worst is the first day actually, i got hurt, it seemed that they don't really know me...

the following days felt better, it seemed that things have already sinked in... maybe they have already understand, yet the questions still linger, i actually have a definite answer but the way things happen, it seems that my answer will never be accepted... but still, i'm sure of what i did...

i fully understand the consequences and i am ready to surpass them all... it is only now that i somehow stick to something that i want to do, so i'll go for it even if the road ahead of me is so hazy and maybe with super typhoons but i'll be happy to pass through it and be rewarded with sunny atmosphere!!!

shifting...

this is it! this is really it! it's now time to move on. i felt and i saw through your reaction that i somehow disappointed or should i say turned you down with my decision, but the thing is you disappointed me first. i never thought that i'll ever do this, but well, things just pushed me to the limit, small things accumulated and before i knew it, suffocation came in. everything just seemed to get worse, i can no longer see or i can no longer wait to see it get better. i already came to the point that i don't care anymore. i never asked for too much, but i think i deserve better than this. what will happen next is still uncertain, but what i am sure is i want to move on NOW and do something else, and i know i will never regret this. i have been just standing for the past years, it's now time to take a step forward, or maybe take a step backward and take a good look of the things before me and decide where to step forward. i understand that things won't be easy, but i am now ready to take on my doubts, worries, what-ifs and indecisiveness in the past. i am hoping for the best, and i know God will guide me along the way.