psychological noise at dawn

i'm still here in front of the computer... it's already early sunday morning... i'm actually thinking on what will happen on the next few months... i've been literally busy with nothing for the past few weeks or i think months... nothing's clear, nothing's sure...i'm thinking of leaving but i think i just can't do that or maybe i just really can't or i actually don't want... it seems like, i'm more of a parasite now, selfish, self-centered, etc... i'm starting to feel ashamed everytime i'm using the orange ATM card... i often think that things are no longer right, but at the end of the day, i'm convincing myself that i am doing the right thing and actually doing them a favor... thinking that they will never find another person who will fill in my place, well, that's my only defense... they can't simply replace me... how pathetic!... the thing is: i just can't leave them and i just can't give up what i'm getting now, it's what practically supporting me now, i can't afford to just loose it in a second... i still believe that everything will be okay, but i also need to work for it, i need to do something... i know i have a responsibility to take, but i don't know how to start or where to start... things are getting complicated, and i'm starting to loose my confidence, i am not even sure where am i now... when i got my job 3 months after graduation, i felt like an achiever... almost 4 years have passed but it seems like i've been stuck somewhere, sometime within those 4 years and i stopped growing... i'll be marking my quater of a century life on earth in three months time yet i haven't accomplish my simple dreams, or maybe they are not simple, maybe i'm just so ambitious... but i'm still hoping... and of course, there's still the master plan... :-)

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The Philippines have 311 cases of Influenza A(H1N1) (as of today); the highest among Asian countries.

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Since a senator is now one of the victims, “vanishing” cellphone loads are now given attention.

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Los Angeles Lakers obtained their 15th NBA title over the Orlando Magic… The PBA’s Powerade Team Pilipinas came back home as champions in the Southeast Asian Basketball Association (SEABA) tournament in Indonesia… The FEU Tamaraws prevailed over the UE Red Warriors in the just concluded FilOil Flying V Pre-Season MVP Cup.

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A 15-year old girl in the US won $50,000 in the LG US National Texting Championship for a speedy and accurate performance in texting.

education matters...

Hunyo na naman… nagsimula na muli ang klase sa mga paaralan… muli na namang headline sa mga balita ang wala na yatang lunas na mga problema kaakibat ng edukasyon sa Pilipinas…

Kulang sa mga school materials, particularly books... isa pang malaking problema ay ang mga sinasabing mali-maling laman ng mga books. Books are one of the major sources of students’ knowledge, but how can students learn if the books they are using are erroneous? Kulang na kulang din ang mga instructional materials, kinakailangan pang kuhanin ng mga guro mula sa kanilang mga sariling bulsa ang pambili ng mga manila paper, pentel pen, etc. na madalas ginagamit sa pagtuturo.

Kulang sa classrooms. Matututo pa kaya ang mga estudyante kung para silang sardinas na nagsisiksikan sa loob ng kanilang mga classroom. Ang ideal class size daw ay 25 students/room pero sa ngayon ay kakaunti na kung 40-50 students/room. May mga paaralan na kulang na lang ay gamitin ang principal’s office na classroom. Ang ibang mga paaralan naman ay sa ilalim ng puno nagka-klase; may paaralan din sa Quezon City na tinayuan na ng classroom ang school ground, kung saan sila nag-f-flag ceremony, para lamang matugunan ang kakulangan sa classroom.

Ilan lamang ang mga nabanggit sa mga problema na madalas napapag-usapan lamang sa pagbubukas ng klase. Pagkatapos ng ilang araw, wala na ulit pakialam ang mga tao, lalo pa ang gobyerno. Isang school year na naman ang lilipas na walang pagbabago. Hindi magtatagal, may laban na naman si Pacquiao, mahigit isang dosena na namang pulitiko ang pupunta sa ibang bansa upang “magbigay suporta” sa kanya. Bakit kaya sa halip na live nila panoorin ang laban ni Pacquiao ay pagsama-samahin na lang ang gagastusin nila upang ipagpatayo ng classrooms or ipambili ng mga credible na libro? Malapit na naman ang eleksyon, milyon-milyon na naman ang gagastusin ng mga presidentiables, sa halip na gugulin sa political campaigns ang pera, bakit kaya hindi na lang itulong sa mga paaralang mahigpit ang mga pangangailangan. Hindi na issue kung sariling pera o pera ng bayan ang ginagastos ng mga pulitiko, pero iisa ang sigurado, kayang makapagpatayo ng kahit sampung classrooms ang perang gagastusin nila.