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late post:

...woke up with this banerette (small banner), thanks to my sister, Che! :) it was such a nice, rainy, and fulfilling day! Thank you Lord for giving me wonderful siblings to celebrate with me as a i turned a year older, braver, and prettier?!? :D

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it's Tuesday already and i haven't accomplished my med cert, i went to the clinic twice and unfortunately the doctor is on leave... it's Tuesday already and i haven't really started studying or reviewing for my final exam on Saturday (nganga na naman, ha Tet???) ...

things has never changed, this is still me, the old ME, the cramming girl, whatever i do, however i do, i always end up making the things right or at least the best to be right on the last seconds or hours maybe! i think i am really not the type of person who is organized and doing things at once... i am always waiting for the last few hours, or should i blame my brain, 'coz it's just working during those last few hours...

i'm here again so what do you expect??? i'm in my panic mode again and paranoid... hope to get over this soon... :) but of course, what is important is at the end of the day, whatever happens, i always believe that it's the only way God wanted things to happen. Smile na! :) Good Vibes na! :)

hapi :D

it's 12:18am, trying to finish encoding one article but some thoughts are running on my mind...

what i am doing might just be nonsense to others, but this is how i want to spend my life, i am not saying that this is what i will do for the rest of my life, but at the moment, it's what makes me happy, a sense of fulfillment, people may think i am just wasting my time, but i will never regret and consider it as a waste of time because i am happy, it can make me smile, laugh and be happy... can make my day bright and okay... :) it just feels that i am just being myself, happy and positive! i am not doing anything wrong, i think, it's not wrong to laugh as long as i am not hurting anyone... just like anyone else, i only have one chance in this lifetime, might as well be happy, right? ;)

by the way, time really flies... -ber months has started... and i am turning more beautiful next week :)

random thoughts...

it's now 1:31 in the morning... i am trying to do my 3rd reaction papers... but sad to say, i can't think of anything and it's due on saturday... i still have or should i say i only have 4 days to do it...

i just realized, i haven't seen my (diary) notebook for a while, many things have happened, i hope i can have time and enthusiasm to write on it again... because i am looking forward of getting to know myself again five or ten years from now... i intend to keep those notebooks and look back on the silly ME... :)

i hope to receive another phone call from ms. joanne soon for my next interview schedule... i badly needed a job... :(

Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad; but it's everything in between that makes it worth living..."

back to school. ;)

it's exactly three months since i last wrote here... time passed just like that... well, i was back to being a student... i can say it's hard especially during the first few weeks, worrying over being away from school for almost eight years, afraid that things have been very, very different now... sleepless nights, i suddenly hated friday because it means i'll have a class the next day, the weekdays suddenly became like my weekends... tons of readings, nervousness over reports and papers... i started going to school at age 6 in kinder and graduated in college at the age of 20, a total of 15 years in school, countless exams and recitations, but honestly it is only now that i felt being a certified student, studying and focusing on the requirements... it felt like a whole new experience all over again, as i have said on my first day, it felt like i am in grade one again, trying to learn how to do things... barely one month to go, the semester will be over but it still feels like i am still in the adjustment period now... but what is good about all these new things is at the bottom of it is the sense of accomplishment for where i am now... i know i still have a long way to go, but i am glad that i am no longer where i was before, i am more financially unstable now but maybe i just learned not to worry over it too much... maybe i have learned to trust GOD more now, and so far He hasn't disappoint me... i am now more confident on things that is coming my way, if my plans don't go the way i want it to be then it's not the things that GOD has written on HIS master plan for me, as simple as that... few years back, this was just a dream, but it's now here within my reach, i was given the opportunity and all i need is to keep my determination and faith that things will be okay... Thank You Lord for everything... I am glad that i took the risk because i believe i am doing okay now... :)