random thoughts...

it's now 1:31 in the morning... i am trying to do my 3rd reaction papers... but sad to say, i can't think of anything and it's due on saturday... i still have or should i say i only have 4 days to do it...

i just realized, i haven't seen my (diary) notebook for a while, many things have happened, i hope i can have time and enthusiasm to write on it again... because i am looking forward of getting to know myself again five or ten years from now... i intend to keep those notebooks and look back on the silly ME... :)

i hope to receive another phone call from ms. joanne soon for my next interview schedule... i badly needed a job... :(

Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad; but it's everything in between that makes it worth living..."

back to school. ;)

it's exactly three months since i last wrote here... time passed just like that... well, i was back to being a student... i can say it's hard especially during the first few weeks, worrying over being away from school for almost eight years, afraid that things have been very, very different now... sleepless nights, i suddenly hated friday because it means i'll have a class the next day, the weekdays suddenly became like my weekends... tons of readings, nervousness over reports and papers... i started going to school at age 6 in kinder and graduated in college at the age of 20, a total of 15 years in school, countless exams and recitations, but honestly it is only now that i felt being a certified student, studying and focusing on the requirements... it felt like a whole new experience all over again, as i have said on my first day, it felt like i am in grade one again, trying to learn how to do things... barely one month to go, the semester will be over but it still feels like i am still in the adjustment period now... but what is good about all these new things is at the bottom of it is the sense of accomplishment for where i am now... i know i still have a long way to go, but i am glad that i am no longer where i was before, i am more financially unstable now but maybe i just learned not to worry over it too much... maybe i have learned to trust GOD more now, and so far He hasn't disappoint me... i am now more confident on things that is coming my way, if my plans don't go the way i want it to be then it's not the things that GOD has written on HIS master plan for me, as simple as that... few years back, this was just a dream, but it's now here within my reach, i was given the opportunity and all i need is to keep my determination and faith that things will be okay... Thank You Lord for everything... I am glad that i took the risk because i believe i am doing okay now... :)